Shame destroys people’s lives. How often do I say something negative to myself? When do I give myself praise? DoI truly believe in myself and in my worth? These are demons I face regularly. I think that perhaps I am not the only one…
How many of us fear that pull? I have been given a gift, and while I use it at about 50% now, it is not what I was created for. I am learning to allow myself to be drawn by the pull of what I love. I am preparing my life for what happens when I allow the pull to be made manifest. Namaste, y’all.
For years, I’ve had a medical condition, hypothyroidism, that has kept me from losing weight. About a year ago, I asked my doctor to adjust my medications. They were adjusted, I found a personal trainer, and I’ve lost weight. But that wasn’t all that was broken. My fat girl mentality is still in my head. Now… I’m fixin’ my thoughts. I’m fixin’ my daily schedule. I’m fixin’ my inability to cook. I’m fixin’ my lunches every day. I’m fixin’ my hair and my makeup, and – most importantly – I’m fixin’ my life. I am worthy of being fixed. Thank you, Bob Harper, for the reminder.
Courage is an important part of my life. The worst insult you can give me is, “You’re a coward.” I don’t know how that came to be true for me, but it is. I have done some obviously brave things – traveling around the world alone, leaving an abusive relationship, going to college, falling in love. But it’s the quiet things, the disciplined, step by step things that sometimes leave me bewildered. It is this that I focus on today. Every morning – 5 sun salutations. Every day – exercise. Every week – 12 step meeting. Every month – keep in contact with people. Every journal entry – finish it without being distracted with a thousand other things that pop into my head. For me this is being brave. For other people, the adrenalin rush of extreme sports, the traveling to new worlds, the arguing and making up – these are the things of courage for them. For me, to be brave means to sit still and be in the moment. What does it mean for you?